As I gain momentum in my wellness and health program it becomes easier for me to eat better, to remain conscious of all the additives I am not ingesting, and I become more committed to my plan. But the results may take longer than I would like. I was hoping that after 3 months and say 6 – 7 desserts (including 3 slips) I would've seen more evidence of my efforts.
I'm not sure what I was looking for. Probably a girlfriend, actually. But let's stick with the health aspects. I have enjoyed the feeling of mastery that comes with gaining control of and insight into my cravings. And, even with this new awareness, I have not hammered myself too hard for the few times I veered hard for a sweet or two. It's all about the path and the progress.
And even with all of my positivism and esteem boosting perceptions of my new-found self-control, I have been a little disappointed that I'm not 20 pounds lighter, and 10 years younger. Of course, I just discovered coconut mana, so I'm willing to give myself another 30 days… Oh, wait.
No, I'm still happy with where I am. I'm a little rounder than I'd expected given all of my effort and exercise, but it's the journey I'm learning to enjoy, not the miraculous results of my new "diet" program. That's never been my goal. It's been a tangential result, perhaps, that I'd expected to see as a side effect of my work, but still… Well, still, I was hoping for more than I achieved.
The good news is, for me, in 2015 I'm MORE committed to my health and wellness efforts than when I started in October. I *have* seen the results more in my self-awareness and self-image. I think I'm becoming more realistic about who I am and what my goals are. I still think I'm 42 instead of 52, but that's a slightly different angle.
Along the three-month journey, I've learned that celebrating the victories is important for me. And today, I had a minor win that seemed worth pulling up into the spotlight.
Of course, my journey began long before I started writing about it. I've been re-investing a good amount of time and effort in strengthening and feeding my desire to get fit. And this past summer, I needed a new pair of tennis shoes, as I had accidentally packed mine in my storage unit after I sold my house.
Today, 7 months later, I have the worn through the sole of those shoes. That's a good bit of time on the court. And what I see in these shoes is a victory. I am doing it. And while I am continuing my efforts in a more focused way, by writing about it, I can also see evidence, by the hole in these shoes, that I am putting in the work.
I ordered new tennis shoes online. And today, that's a huge victory.
Take the next step,